Be the King of your own LIFE

我那麼年輕就要過這一關，是福氣，過了這關我會變得更強。 有時真的很難不相信 一些事情所帶來的強烈暗示。 半年前，當我向著放棄一份高薪工作 打死都要做自己喜歡的工作時 老天死都不給我一份 hacker 的工作 就是給我 quintiq，就只有 quintiq 半年後，家裡發生了好多好多事情 如果不是老天的堅持 也許我根本沒辦法養活自己 需要給老媽的生活費 需要開始還自己的保險（保險桿他媽的真的很貴） 三分之一的薪水就這樣蒸發叻。 媽媽跟爸爸不再相親相愛 做兒子的，尤其是獨生子的壓力真的很大 精神上，金錢上，等等等 所以有兄弟姐們的朋友啊！ 好好珍惜你們的兄弟姐妹啊！ 我該慶幸，我有這份工作 不然我現在應該是餐餐白粥配罐頭菜心 我該慶幸，我這麼年輕就要面對這些事情 見識過才會學會才會變得更強 我該慶幸，這些壓力給我的動力 讓我看清楚自己的方向 恭喜你啊！黃逸捷！你又進化啦！

工作责任开始重了。 家里事情开始多了，烦了，复杂了。 好想能放声大喊。 压力好大好大。 坚强？只是一个形容词。 不习惯假装，但必须，必要。 吃饱睡好，但是还是，瘦了好多。 好像一天比一天瘦。 我怎么了？我自己都不知道。 有时庆幸有妳在我身边。 但有时连你也生气我时，我真的很想放弃我自己。 就这样结束生命。 好简单。

I love you for a thousand year. And a thousand more Deperately need a guitar.

雨天缠绵好久一段时间 接近天天都下雨的天气 该怎么表达呢？ 全年都是夏天的马来西亚 下一下雨 让空气沐浴，凉快一下也到还不错 但雨天的天气 总是有那么一点孤单的尾巴 在角落攒动 把生命孤立起来 孤立在小小的陆地 孤立在小小的屋顶下 孤立起部分需要群体才能维生的灵魂 孤立起些许孤单时会胡思乱想的思维 思念，又在这被孤立的时刻 特喜欢找上门来 人生啊，像在沙滩上行走 走过了，留下了足迹 深的，浅的 没过一下，却又像没存在过一样 被冲淡了，消失了 然后那些痕迹，就只残留在脑海中 再转头看下脚底，又是一个新的脚印 看向前方，还有好长一个沙滩 足迹要长什么样子 直着走，横着走 有时停下脚步在原地休息一下 有时想跑得快些，让脚印狂乱些 有时想跳舞，让脚印像水墨画一样的的渲染开来 都是自己的选择 也许结果会不一样 但都不会是坏的选择 不要为过去的觉得惋惜 不要为还没来得觉得害怕 要为当下活得精彩。 杰 2012.11.03 21:20

I have lots of idea yet to post..lack of time and lack of a stable Internet connection at home. I arrived office super early recently, while I do not feel like to start working so early, might as well do a post. Last weekend I went to Melaka to find my love one again. As usual we hang around at Melaka town. We had our lunch at Wazen Japanese Restaurant and we did not remember to take any picture there. Too hungry maybe. =P After that we went to watch 犀利人妻. A rather slightly above average movie for me. Made some good point about love that I agree of, but the movie filmography sometimes is so random that I feel weird. Laugh die near the wedding ceremony at the end. Recommendation level? 6.22/10 At night we went to 烔锅  once again and again it was very very good. More details can read on my previous post about it. The second day we went 潮州肉骨茶 for breakfast/brunch. I have always miss this place alot after I came KL to work. Finally I am able to fulfill my crave. Thanks darli

     I got my Nexus 7 a few days ago, and it doesn't have a 3g modem in it. That means I cannot use a mobile internet with this device. Tried to create an ad hoc network in my windows 7 pc, and it cannot even detect the ad hoc network. This is already a known problem for android ICS (ice Cream Sandwich) and Jelly Bean.      After some research, I found out that ICS and JB only can detect "Infrastructure" based WiFi signal. Ad hoc network is using another type of signal that ICS and JB cannot detect unless you root and tweak your phone's wpa_supplicant files. In which they are known to cause abnormal behavior of the OS itself.      So, I call myself an IT professional and a hacker . How can I surrender to such a small problem! There must be a solution somewhere. Again, after some research, I realized that Windows 7 actually provide 2 drivers for a network card. Basically 1 of it is what you use everyday, as a client that receive service from an AP. The other 1, is

What an eve for the day of the year.. First,a call from mum... Then a quarrel.. Check company mail, an email that bashed my confidence... What an eve, everything i care just turn against me... 明知道总有一日 所有的悲欢都将离我而去 我仍然竭力地搜集 搜集那些美丽的纠缠着的 值得为她活了一次的记忆 Trying hard isn't enough, one needs to be try hard and smart..sad truth of the world..

16 Sep 2012 / 天气晴 / 心情晴 地点：马六甲 “烔锅” 火锅店 这个周末为了载妈妈回新山，就特地驾车回了次家里。想念了好久的妈妈的菜真的真的很美味。虽然在家里发生了些不愉快的事情，不过也很快雨过天晴，一切都还算不错。在家呆了个晚上，爸爸妈妈要去 kukup 玩，我没跟所以就打算回公公婆婆家，在 s'ban，过一晚顺便探望他们老人家。路过马六甲的时候还能找女孩谈下情说下爱。 在马六甲时，女孩和我决定找间火锅餐馆来解决晚餐。女孩说 kota laksamana 开了间新的火锅餐馆，所以我们就到那里去啦！ 此店店名为 “烔锅”。此店乃我品尝过无数间火锅餐馆中数一数二地。单单菇类就多达七种！otah-otah，卤肉饭，羊肉，牛肉，鸡肉，鱼肉，海鲜统统有。包装火锅料接近五十种。四种汤底：tomyam, kimchi, 清汤, 药材，任你自己加。甜品，雪糕，饮料都有。面类也多达五种任你挑。而我本身，最注重的，是火锅的酱料，此店也有六种不同的酱料，辣的，甜的，酸的，都有。我的妈！ 看到那些排队的人没有？？有没有？ 真的吃到很满足。强力推荐此间火锅餐馆！地点就在 kota laksamana 火锅城。ONE O ONE 那一排进去一点。 p/s: 能和妳一起吃火锅，真的很幸福 =)

有时候城市越大越忙越五光十色 夜深人静时更凸显出一个人的寂寞。 失望，担心 我忍不住泪水。 有時候，在一個人的夜晚，突然覺得寂寞深入骨髓；  有時候，很想放縱自己，希望自己徹徹底底醉一次。

Once, I thought I loved IT, I thought I understand IT because i know how to reformat a computer and download a cracked software. So 4 years ago I joined MMU. I do not know what is memory address, I do not know what is djikstra algorithm, I do not know abt constraint logic, I do not know about Linux....and yet i thought I understand IT. There's many important person that define me during this 4 years, as in technically from aspect of IT. 1) First programming language i touch, Visual Basic, taught by Mr. Khairul. He gave me a nice intro into the world of programming. Interestingly, I started in MMU using VB, as my first programming language and I finished my study, my FYP, in VB too. Is it coincidence? 2) Mr. Andrew Samraj, who taught me alot on how computer actually work, deep down into the hardware itself. The very imprtant part of IT which alot of people hated and neglected. 3) Ms. Chong Siew Chin, my CP1 and CP2 lecturer, vr nice lecturer, gave me alot of guidance that

OK..when was my last post? 09/06/2012.... neat..life has been changing...alot... i thought of my blog and was frequently reminded by ppl that dun forget my blog.. but ya somehow the motivation wasnt there.. Finally, today is my first holiday since I started working from 2nd of July till now and i found my motivation..lots of motivation..XD So what's up in between? I started working in Quintiq Sdn. Bhd. I interviewed to a developer but in the end after the whole training process, i get my chance to dive into security related work in Quintiq which I also preferred. Now i had finished all the training and have my own station to work. TADAAAA: I've been enjoying working in here, the colleagues are all vr helpful. We have sports activity regularly everyday in the working day from monday to friday. Futsal, basketball, badminton, tennis, baseball..you name it. Sometimes when you r stressed out or out of ideas, you can head over to the R&R room to have a few round of po

三天，花了三天 我拼好了我的拼图 里边有好多好多的妳 本来害怕我拼不出来 现在我拼完了 却才发现这拼图不能没了妳 而妳呢？妳的拼图里有我吧？ 妳，是唯一一个出现过在我拼图里的，我的女人 我，爱，妳。

思绪从这一行感触开始：  四年前房间很空，四年里房间渐渐填满，四年后房间回到四年前的模 样，留下一些些岁月的痕迹。 四年的大学生涯，学会了很多事情，放弃了很多事情，领悟了很多道理，但放开这些后还是觉得还有好多事还可以做啊！可是时间总不会停下来等你，四年结结实实的是过去了，错过的后悔的就沉淀在回忆里。 B-03A-07，一间我住了整整四年的房子，认识了一群很好的 housemate。要常联络啊！ 四年里我曾不断的投诉ixora很不好，投诉附近食物的选择太少，但当我清空我的房间，驾着车子离开的那天，我恨不得把那些食物统统的吃一遍。我回到新山家里躺在我的双人床时，我竟然开始想念那张我睡了四年没换过的单人床。 华文学会，我大学生涯的第一年，也是一段很好的回忆，忙碌但充实的生活。微晶创作坊，充满音乐的那些夜晚，那些自己创作歌曲，自己弹奏歌曲的勇气及坚持。但最后我还是没能走在音乐的路上；最后我也没能呆在华文学会到最后，我放弃了。后悔吗？有，也没有。 如果感觉是一个个小小的音符，感触就是演奏曲子的钢琴。 马六甲，一个以前对我来说没什么真实感的州，我在历史课本上度过它伟大的历史，但就是没有真正的去体会过这个州。直到我在这里住了四年，我爱上了马六甲。它的宁静，它的安详，是我住过的其他城市不能媲美的。虽然我也只住过吉隆坡，芙蓉和新山而已。而现在我离开了，那些我熟悉的道路，熟悉的食物，熟悉的戏院，熟悉的休闲场所，那不舍的程度，好深好深。毕竟他是我离家一人在外居住的第一个城市，他拥有我太多自主性的回忆。 而妳，我唯一一个妳，我们有太多的回忆留在马六甲，也许有一天我们会回到那里继续我们的生活也不一定。我想念小飞象，我更想念妳；我想念ixora前面那条妳时常载我的马路，我更想念妳；我想念我们牵手逛过的每一个地方，我更更想念妳；我想念那些我们一起去吃过的食物，而我，非常非常的想念妳。 其实关于幸福，我已经在知足之中，点点滴滴，聚成了一塘水洼，而那里面有我，有妳，更有我们生活里的感动。

It was those days.  It was those days, we fight and quarrel. It was those days, crazies and laughter. No one is to blame, no one. Everybody was not wrong yet everybody was wrong. What's left, emotion. 尋夢？撐一支長蒿，     向青草更青處漫溯，   滿載一船星輝，       在星輝斑斓裏放歌。   但我不能放歌，       悄悄是别離的笙箫； 夏蟲也爲我沉默，     沉默是今晚的康橋！

It hurts bad, when you find yourself, worth less then your nemesis.

七十页的笔记我毫不惧怕 但那短短几句歌词 我却无能为力 失望的不是因为那低分 而是不能了解自己 为何会如此的无能为力 然后我想到了妳 想为妳着首诗但文采太低俗 想为妳写首歌但音符太沉默 那就为妳买个妳想要的 在人海中寻找适合妳的 妳会喜欢的 然后幻想着妳看到它时 那幸福的表情 和妳那让人着迷的笑容 把我的失望隐藏在妳看不到的地方 然后希望能让你开心 真心的希望妳开心 我却 还是像个傻瓜似的 没能做到。 就算全世界都与我为敌 爱你没有转弯的余地。

距离离开读书生涯，倒数一个月。 从叛逆，再叛逆 然后摸索自己要的是什么 然后以为自己找到了 之后又发觉有些事情 无论怎么看，你永远只会看到其中的一角。 这辈子能够一眼看清的，除了你自己以外没其他的了。 就算是一颗沙子，你也不会看清，它如何成为一颗沙。 也许他曾经是一颗流星 回顾过去，做好现在，放眼未来。 你永远不会知道自己会走到哪里，遇见谁。 而正因为你不会知道，它才有趣，生命它，才有趣。 何必去害怕？害怕改变不了任何事情。 而不害怕，却能开启无限多的机会。 不要害怕放手，放手能够让你再遇见 不要害怕放慢脚步，放慢脚步让你看得更清楚 不要害怕像疯子一样的急奔，急奔让你知道自己的实力 不要害怕失败，失败让你更坚强 最重要的，不要害怕相信你自己，他，她，让你独一无二。 P/s: 我不想再做第二，下一次，我要第一。这是我对自己的承诺。

我是海。 你是我的天空。 晴天时，我们拥抱彼此。 雨天时，我因你的泪水， 而泛起满湖的涟漪。 涟漪与涟漪间碰撞再碰撞。 期盼着雨后的晴天。 海与天的再度拥抱。

我喜歡你喜歡到連自己都覺得驚慌失措

为什麽要这麽卖力的 要求每个人都喜欢你 要符合别人的标准来做人 这样的人生将会失去意义 只要处事待人时存好心好意 不要这么在乎別人怎么看你 没有可能能做到全世界的人都满意 尽心尽力的做 凡事只要对得起老天 不要糊里糊涂的改变自己来讨人欢喜

OK its valentines, always headache what to give to my girlfriend. Been Thinking for a loooooonnnnggg time.. One day i came across a website selling DIY scenes and frames and other items.. Alot of them look nice on the photo.. So i think, i got no money to give expensive product as a valentine's gift, so why don't make one wit my own hands? It will be memorable no? So I decided to give it a try. I bought a 3D Frame wit a simple house set up. This is my RESULT: The Valentine's Present. WARNING! THIS IS A PHOTO INTENSIVE POST!

我常忘记东西， 每次我都会问自己为什么。 我自己也不知道为什么。 想做的更好， 可是一直又做不到。 那对自己失望的感觉， 好空虚。 把头靠在桌上沉思， 想着该怎么办。 可是想着想着， 桌子湿了。 被再多的人讨厌， 也比不上，对自己的失望。 好黑，好暗，好迷茫。 我不会忘记， 我必须呼吸。 就像我不会忘记， 我爱你。 T.T

First thing first...some time ago me and darling and daby and fy had a outing to buy present at Dataran Pahlawan..it was...2nd of December 2012..Photos! Darling and I..=D

Ok I guess I'm not a good blogger. I always feel lazy to type the words in my mind in this blog due to unknown reason although I always wanted to share it on here. So today, I finally cannot withstand the urge of my own kind heart. Here we go on a tour on my recent photos. I missed out alot of precious moment because I'm not a person that always will think of taking a photograph. I guess I need to improve on this too to become a better blogger........ OK FIRST OF ALL, I NEED TO ANNOUNCE THAT I OFFICIALLY PASSED UP AND SETTLE MY FYP!!!! Saya mia.. My darling mia..=D That being an extremely happy matter, PLUS me and my darling is officially been together for more than 1 year as you can see on the meter right hand side. We celebrated our anniversary on 2nd February 2012 which is the 365th day..=D For lunch, we went to a 鱼头米粉 shop which me and her would like to try for a long time, the name of the shop is 大家鱼头米..We both like it alot as it taste really good and the s

喜歡靜靜地想你 放上一段優雅的音樂 沏上一杯淡淡的香茶 在這方寸之間、在字行之間 尋找你的影跡 我想你 你笑了 我的心亦晴了 你沉默了 我的心亦灰了 前面的路還很遠 你可能會哭 但是一定要走下去 一定不能停…… 我想要和你白頭到老 珍惜愛的每分每秒 等很老很老的時候 依然有你溫柔的擁抱 和我甜蜜的微笑 即使受了再大的委屈 也堅信你是我這一生的依靠 把你拥在懷裡 跟你相對傻傻的笑 不怕以后的日子平淡和簡單 只要有你 牽著手 即使你多難過多生氣 也不會鬆掉 就是一輩子續寫的美好

One fine day, Johnny , Orlando and Keira is filming in a public place. By chances, you and your friends passed through the area. You stopped and watched the filming. One by one, Orlando and Keira finished their parts. Johnny was up in the scene, slightly off standard performances. Got irritated a bit maybe. Remember, you were there all the time. During Orlando's and Keira's filming, say already for 2 hours. After the filming is done, Johnny wrote to the press, complaining that he was being watched during his filming and that should not happen. He is absurdly angry. In this case, is Johnny a good actor still? If yes, why is he being affected easily? and what makes him so special to have the privilege to not being watch? or are you deserved to be in the blame? If yes, why are you not informed earlier by the crews or even Johnny himself that you should not be watching? Lastly, what will be your responses to this matter? Johnny is a star actor, you are nothing but a